I have been experiencing something lately that I tried to put into words yesterday. Have you ever been hungry but you don’t know what it is that you are craving? You can scrounge through the refrigerator and dig through the pantry, but you can’t find anything that satisfies your hunger. In my family this is commonly known as “the munchies”. But recently, I have been experiencing something I would like to call Spiritual Munchies.
I have a routine each morning. Before I even get out of bed, the first thing I do is I spend some devotional time with God. This is my favorite part of the day. I have many different resources that I use during this time. I am subscribed to several email devotionals. I also enjoy reading Joyce Meyer’s daily meditations. And on occasion I use the Message Solo: An Uncommon Devotion. And of course I keep my handy dandy parallel Bible close at hand to look up whatever scriptures happen to be presented. No matter what I happen to read on any given day, I have made it a point to get something from God before I start my day. This has worked just fine for me. Until my recent case of Spiritual Munchies.
This has been more than a little disturbing. I can’t seem to satisfy some sort of spiritual hunger that is deep within my soul. It’s very unnerving. And for days I have been trying to figure out what will do the trick. What can I do to satisfy this seemingly irrepressible desire for the things of God? Even though I glean insights from almost everything I read or listen to, I just couldn’t get away from the feeling that there needed to be something more.
I was explaining this to a friend of mine yesterday morning. Ok, to be honest, I was whining about it. In retrospect, how silly is that? Well, this very wise friend of mine said something that struck chord with me. She said, “God is wanting a deeper relationship with you. That is so amazing.” I have spent the day mulling this over and have come to the conclusion that she just might be on to something.
I decided that the best way to get an answer on this would be to talk to God about it. So I took it to Him in prayer. And as I was telling God pretty much what I have just previously written, I felt him speak to my heart. And what was brought to my attention was this. Each morning my main goal has been to GET something from God. That’s pretty one-sided, almost selfish even. What if my husband and children woke up each morning and just wanted to GET something from me? That would get pretty old pretty quick. Relationships must have a give and take factor. So if God is wanting a deeper relationship with me, maybe I need to do some giving and not just taking.
So the next question naturally became, what do I have to give to God? What could He possibly need from me? After all, He is the God of the entire universe! I have absolutely nothing to offer. The moment this thought zipped through my brain, Revelation 3:20 came to mind.
Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.
This is the King James version that I memorized as a child. I have always focused on the first part of this verse. The mental picture is that of Jesus knocking on the door of my heart and waiting patiently until I let him in. But I was drawn to the latter portion of the verse, “and will sup with him and he with me”. Other versions say things like, “eat with him”, “dine with him”, or my favorite, “we will share a meal together as friends.” (NLT) It dawned on me that what God wanted from me was some time spent together. Just Him and me. He desires me to share my heart with him, my truest self, even though He knows me to the very core of my being. He waits everyday for me to just come to Him and “talk together as friends”.
The only way I will satisfy my spiritual hunger is to take time to “sup” with God each and every day. He wants to feed me a healthy and nutritious meal that will sustain me. I will not be able find these things in any man made resource. This goes beyond lifting up my ever growing list of prayers and petitions to God. I believe what He has been trying to tell me is that I need to stop striving and just take time to sit quietly and commune with Him. And He will satisfy all future cases of Spiritual Munchies.